Emotional Winter

We’d known each other for so long before
always your beauty I’d tried to ignore
your essence, your aura I would silently intake
treading cautiously, not to make a mistake
while heading out all alone in the cold
toward my emotional winter

And then, like a dream, you came to me
diaphanous, ethereal, wild and free
you were, that night, so wonderful to behold
delicate, like a rose, I helped you unfold
your body on fire, tenderly mine to hold
but your eyes betrayed a story, untold
inevitable
like dark icy clouds pushing me onwards
into my emotional winter

I knew all the time it was too good to be true
making love would be the last thing we would do
you are not to blame, no, the fault is mine
in desperate confusion, I stepped over the line
stranded, desolate, no one to hear me call
and then the snow began to fall

This pain inside me is all too real
the intense emotion inside that I feel
when I think of you, and my deep desire
to have and to hold you, to burn in your fire
but you are gone, just a hot memory
as the snow deepens all around

I don’t really know why, but I still want you so bad
when often I think of the brief time we had
compassion, love, guilt, desire and sadness
the confusing feelings driving me to madness
a dark deadly storm, cutting cold and deep
I’m lost within my emotional winter

Now, everywhere I turn I see your face
a cold illusion, it makes my heart race
I thought I had control of the situation
but I’m so consumed by runaway emotion
and forever now I will be caught
any struggle will come to naught
locked
in the eternal glacial freeze
of my Emotional Winter

Michael A. Barnett 12.9.95

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My favorite Concept Albums

I’ve been thinking lately about my favorite concept albums… I really enjoy them. Here’s my three favorites, in order of release dates, for your entertainment and/or amusement:

1. Days Of Future Past, The Moody Blues. I listened to this on LP a million times – the variety of music, the orchestration, and the vocals are all superb.

2. Magica, Dio. Ronnie James Dio really did create magic with this one – a 20 minute spoken word history of the mythical planet Blessing,her inhabitants and heroes, as they are inundated by the evil Shadowcast and his minions. The music, vocals, and production values are simply as good as it can get. It pretty much lives in slot 3 of my Honda’s CD changer.

3. Witches, One-Eyed Doll. Witches is based on the Salem Witch Trials, and follows the history very faithfully. But what makes this so awesome is the talent of the two people who put it together, Kimberly Freeman and Junior Sewell, who comprise the entire band. The music runs the gamut from Gothic metal punk to to some of the smoothest bluesy laments you’ve ever heard, and it’s every bit as good as the other two on this list.

Honorable Mention – the fully orchestrated and narrated version of Peter And The Wolf I had as a kid… that, along with the classical music used in many old cartoons, really started me off appreciating fine sounds, independent of genre!!

#DaysOfFuturePast #MoodyBlues #Magica #Dio #Witches #OneEyedDoll #PeterAndTheWolf


Fracture…

Hardened steel heart

Rent apart

By a thought of you


Breakiness

Aching hearts
Worlds apart
Never met
And yet
Beat as one

 


Here’s To You, Melissa…

18 years ago today, at 8:20PM, you left with the same astral event that, 29 years and 4 days earlier, heralded your arrival. Your time here was too brief, yet you touched many souls while you were here. I’d have gladly traded fates with you had such a thing been possible, but that was not to be. I still miss you. You were a far better person than I will ever be, but your presence helped me to become far better than I was, or would have been without you.

And you know, I still can’t bring myself to watch the damn meteor shower, even after all these years.

This one’s for you, Melissa
http://youtu.be/-Fl7yNIPlGM “The Sentinel – Judas Priest”


*hic*

Reality is just an illusion caused by a shortage of alcohol. – Jim Grassini


Rageous…

a dark rage, barely contained

constrained and untamed

songbirds lifting the bright morning sun


Soraia: Perfected Musical Poetitude…

Soraia is a band I found out about via YouTube.  I have been blown away ever since!  All I can say is that you need to check them out, both on YouTube, and on their official website www.soraia.com .  Read ZouZou’s bio, read everything, listen to what’s there, and get the CD “In The Valley Of Love And Guns”, because it’s awesome.  After listening to it once, I felt I’d shared her soul.  And unwittingly shared mine with her.

SORAIA CARE PACKAGE

My CD and stuff, addressed by ZouZou herself (were I the type to ‘squeee’, I would!)

Her lyrics have a wonderfully confessional honesty within them, and at the same time, a great sense of dare and challenge.  The band is as proficient musically as she is at the microphone, weaving a sound that reminds me of the 60’s.  Those would be, of course, the 60’s of Russ Meyer and James Coburn’s Derek Flint!

Here’s a suggested video sampling:

Jolene http://youtu.be/9F2_mo-4B6E

Love Like Voodoo  http://youtu.be/Eu2q7KMp74s

Damn Dirty Woman (the first song I heard)  http://youtu.be/9YKJGx7DpwQ


My “Universe As Mobius Strip” Theorem:

The cycle of life isn’t always easy to understand, but if you can embrace it, it will, in turn, take care of you.

OK, so it’s not much as far as theorems go.  But for a Monday, what the hell do you expect?


Ronnie James Dio… RIP

Three years ago today, the world lost one of the best vocalists ever: Ronnie James Dio. His energy, style, talent, and kindness will be missed forever, but his music will never die. Doro Pesch, the awesome German artist, recorded this beautiful song in tribute to the biggest small guy to ever rule Metal music:

http://youtu.be/gApL-52-iK8